The world is spinning for me these day. Someone talk to me about this. >.< Just this year, I suddenly found myself trying out a lot of new things, some that I feel pretty nervous about, but I just gotta do what I gotta do. Yes... that includes dissecting a dead person for the first time. >.>" I dissected many animals before, but this is my first time on human. I just... it's a friggin person!! They used to be just like you and me, breathing, had feelings, had memories, and now they're dead laying there waiting for people to cut them up. It's kind of like seeing myself, dissecting myself. I don't even know.
Also I'll be leading other students for several chemistry workshops... the responsibility. I am actually younger than practically all those students. At my college, some people are almost my parents' age and even older. Some are around my age though. The other leaders for chemistry are all older than me. I don't know how those students will feel seeing me leading them. Especially when chemistry isn't an easy subject, people do want to look for leaders who look reliable and experienced to lead them. It's intimidating. I barely got to this college, and suddenly I was picked to do this. And my counselor also overwrote some stuff so that I literally just jumped straight into an advanced course without taking the mandatory prerequisite. It's good that I save a lot of time, but at the same time, I'm less prepared so I have to work harder.
Ehh there are some other things that I'm going to try some time this year as well. Even trying out a new relationship maybe..? I don't want to speak too soon because I feel like I already have plenty on my plate. The guy who likes me this time is handsome, considerate, funny and reminds me a little of Levi. But whenever we were together, he watched me like a hawk! I felt so.. like that feeling of being watched constantly. Sometimes I would turn my head away or my back somewhere to dodge his stare, I couldn't stand the awkwardness.